A few things before the benevolent dictator awakes…

 

Having two children is MORE than TWICE the work. It may be even four times the work. It’s not necessarily physically demanding work…but it is exhausting. I find myself trying to give Allee my complete attention, while holding Lily, and also while thinking of the endless amount of housework…which means that really no one is getting attention. So then I feel guilty. And then the cycle starts all over again.

Some days are easier than others; I finally understand why people with kids schedule lots of activities until the spouse gets home–it keeps the kids busy and out of the grasp of the television. It also gives the adults something else to look at besides the same four walls (and if you are super lucky you can find an adult to have a conversation with–unfortunately all you have to talk about?? the kids!!! but still..) and it keeps the house you just straightened, clean. Yay for playdates and lessons and camp! I must sound like a horrible person–but I think I’d be more horrible to let Allee just veg out in front of the television all day. I know you must be thinking–Shelley, is that the only alternative? and no, it isn’t. But, it’s really hot outside and we can only do art and reading for so long…so there!

 

I found myself thinking yesterday that when things finally return to ‘normal’ I will find a better and more consistent exercise routine and then almost simultaneously, I realized…DUH! this is the new normal…at least for now. I’m just going to have to learn how to maximize my time or not hate myself every time I miss a workout.

Losing the baby weight from both pregnancies is hard, people. It takes discipline and hard work. Ugh.

Fun things about Lily– she coos and ‘talks’ now, she’s rolling on her side, she’s chewing on her fingers like she’s getting teeth…but I just don’t think it  can be possible, she’s super smiley, she does NOT like riding in the car if Allee is not present, she can grab the little animals hanging from her play mat and she likes to ‘eat’ them, she’s still super mellow.

Fun things about Allee–she’s getting better and better at tennis, she’s so self-sufficient, she just got her first hair cut, she’s absolutely stunning in every way, she looked at me yesterday and mouthed ‘I love you’ just because she wanted to,  she tried a banana and raisins last week and claimed she liked them! (oh and she ate my banana muffins and loved them!)

 

And she awakes…more later